strange and unusual

im actually in a good mood...

kinda crazy if you ask me..

im usually pretty emo at this time of night..

but what i figure as to why im in such a good mood, is the music that i listen to is what makes my mood for the night, what i think about and what i watch on tv..

i never really realized how that can make my mood..

but im happy for some unknown reason.. i think since ive been pretty emo these past couple weeks that one night of happiness can't be all to do bad..

i saw my sister danielle today, and my sister leah called me..

thats also another reason why im in a good mood.. i love my family and i talked to every single person in my immeadiate family today..


im happy... and i hope it doesn't leave for me for awhile..

im content..

but one thing that ive been learning is you can CHOOSE how you feel.. no one makes you feel a certain way.. you choose how you react to things and how you feel..

one thing that i don't like about blogging is that i sound really corny when im happy and i sound to depressed when im emo..

:D

its true though..


today, this morning, i was walking to my locker and i was feeling really content and a girl walked by and she had a really really cute sweater on and i really liked it, i stepped out of my comfort zone and told her that her sweater was really cute.. now to many people that might seem like such an easy thing too doo.. well its not for me. at school im so shy and i don't talk to anyone i don't know.. and she responded with a smile and said she liked my sweater too, it was the same style of print, well kinda..

but i walked away feeling 10x happier than i did before.. it felt nice to be kind to a total strangeer who ive never seen before in my life..


ive been so caught up in whats wrong with me and whats going to happen to ME that i forgot that its NOT about me.. my friend told me to get over myself. i was kind of shocked to hear this.. but they were so right, i completely forgot that its not about me and my problems.. that there are people who need someone to just listen to them. SO now im trying to walk through the hallways with a smile on my face..


its not about me, it never was in the first place,

i think you know what im going to say next.........


sara