They'll never read this anyway..

the people who have hurt me the past month.. which is quite a few people..

they've hurt me in such a way that its latched onto my heart..

and i know what you thinking.. " sara just give it God.. " well you see.. the thing is..

i don't really know how.. the words that "those people" have spoken to me have carved a big hole in my heart and it feels like they are tattoed there. its not just one specific word. but a billion.. (maybe im exaggerating) but how they say it and when they say it, those words are like darts to my heart..

i try to be the better person and not start a fight.. but it hurts me to bad..

and now you probably saying "well sara you should confront this person."

trust me... i have.. and they think im being tooo over dramatic.. which im not going to lie, i can be at times.. but i really don't think i am now.. so when i say NO to what they say they get MAD at me?! me?! like come on.. i should be the one getting mad..

they think they're

better than me

think they're the only people who are right in this world
and when i disagree they laugh in my face

they talk CRAP about people i love..



this is hurting me alot and i really don't know what to do..

soooo...

in all of this, it has lowered my self- esteem and how i look at myself. its lowered my confidence.

to a big extent..

because i care......

which sucks..



sara