who knew?

that you could learn a butt load of things.. in just one day..

today.. was a far different sunday than it was last sunday.. way different..

today God spoke to me.. said things that brought me revelation and made me reaslize that i blow things out of porportion..

today Pastor walt spoke on probably the most needed thing i needed to hear in a long time..

it was about religious attitudes..

as he was listing all the signs of "religious" people.. this person kept coming up in my mind.. this person meant a great deal to me. i cared about them.. alot.. but as he read each number.. it was like i stepped on a needle.. it hurt.. really really bad.. i got all anxious.. because hearing all these things brought back my pain that this person had caused me..


so Pastor Walt challenged me.. to forgive them.. to ask GOD for forgiveness for my anger and bitterness towards them so then i can forgive them and pray that GOD will come and have divine interventions with them.. so i can forgive them and love them..

and truly FORGIVE them.. no matter what they did to me..

so after church im driving in my car and this revelation came into my mind..

God wants me to give this to him and to let me forgive them because he wants me to move on so he can start something and take me to a new level..

Im so excited..

God is starting to take me places.. yesterday i was bitter and mad at GOd and today i can't wait to move forward with him. hand and hand..

i have such a peace..

and i love Jesus.. with all my soul heart and mind.